Eden Mode

and then there came Eden. :)

2008-12-10T01:23:00.000-08:00

20 years, 8 months, 2 weeks, and three days ago, the world was a quieter and more peaceful place, but it was also dark and boring. Yes, it was a sad place indeed. And then, on the 22^nd day of the 2^nd month of that fateful year, something happened that changed the way the world was.

What happened?

I HAPPENED.

Suddenly, everything was, well, better. The sun shone a little brighter, the birds started singing (yeah, they learned to sing just after I was born. They heard little me cry my lungs out and I guess that was just too inspiring for them.), the plants produced more oxygen (I was also good for the environment), even the stars were more dazzling. Songs were composed, dances were choreographed, stories were brought to life, you know, all that jazz.

Haha. Okay. So maybe I exaggerated a little. Or maybe a lot. Fine, I exaggerated. Period. But you see, when you’re the first born, first grandchild, first everything, you’re pretty much the whole world to your family. The first-time parents of course are excited and scared at the same time because, well, you’re the first, and with parenting, you really don’t get much training until you have your own kid. So yeah, the first-borns are usually the guinea pigs. (Yeouch. Haha.) And the grandparents, they aren’t any less excited than the parents themselves. It’s always, “Ang cute-cute ng apo ko”, or “Kamukha ng lolo/a” or whatever cutesy stuff it is they say while cooing endlessly in front of you.

Anyway, so there, I was the center of their universe. Until the brother came along.

Now who knew that the world would be a much better place if there were two centers instead of just one?

Haha. I lost myself there. Sorry if I’m not making any sense. At all. It is but normal. :D

What I’m saying is, no, I did not and still don’t hate my brother. We both grew up in an environment where we felt safe and secure of the love of the people around us, so we never had to fight for attention, much more the love and affection of our parents or anybody, for that matter. No, we weren’t spoiled or anything. Being the center of the universe isn’t permanent, we both found out later in life. We knew we were loved, but we also knew that the world does not revolve around us – anymore. Haha.

So, as I was saying, I made the world a better place. (Haha, somebody shoot me. Now.) Well, there is actually some truth in this. Just ask my mother and my father. They are happy. And that’s basically all that matters. Haha.

Enough of that. It’s not making any sense. It’s starting to sound like me, talking. Haha. But one thing’s for sure, though my existence may not be the sole source of light or feeling or energy which brightens up the whole world, my existence had certainly made this world a NOISIER place.

Growing up, I was always the talkative one. I had lots of stories, most of them made-up, of course. I talked about things that made sense but most of the time I think I talked just for the sake of talking. But weirdly enough, I am pretty shy around people. What I mean is, I’m not the outgoing type of person. So if I don’t know anyone in my class, for example, then my existence would be barely noticeable. I’m not usually the first one to go and introduce myself.

I don’t know where I got my confidence issues. I was went to a catholic school in elementary, and aside from reiterating the values I got from my parents and grandparents – who are devout Catholics – it was also in school where I first got exposed to competitions and such activities that would hone my self-confidence. I remember being on plays and spelling bees and other contests and I didn’t have any problem whatsoever. I was okay with everything. And then the next thing I remember, I was under the table, hiding, because I didn’t want to participate in the singing contest that I was signed up for. So I hid under the table until I was sure I wouldn’t be in it. It was then that I realized that I am scared of public performances.

The funny thing is, even though I have a very bad case of stage fright, I am now here in the University of the Philippines, in the COLLEGE OF MASS COMMUNICATION, taking up Broadcast Communication, nonetheless. And I can’t imagine myself anywhere else. Fate does have a twisted sense of humor. Now my life is production – cameras, microphones, costumes, make-up, scripts, lights, concepts, the whole works.

College indeed changes people. I’m not saying that I’m more aggressive now, maybe I’m just more comfortable with myself and I admit, it just needs getting used to. (Although I am never used to it enough.) And besides, not just about how I feel in front of an audience or a camera, for that matter. Back in high school, I religiously followed soap operas and laughed myself to death with the wisecracks of whatever sitcom I’m watching. I mean, television was a one-way medium. I was just absorbing whatever media is feeding me though it. But now, well now I still watch series and sitcoms and other whatnots, but I have learned that I don’t have to take everything in. or maybe I knew it back then, I just didn’t care enough.

I have become more critical of everything, not just media or the television. People? Life? Love? Call me cheesy or whatever, but yeah, all those. I certainly won’t deny that I have had my share of the “emo”-ness. Come on, everybody has those moments.

This university undoubtedly played a big part in, maybe not changing, but I would like to think of it as improving me, my identity, my beliefs. Here I met people. Some of whom became friends, some remained as mere acquaintances, but whichever way they turn out to be, meeting all of them taught me how to deal with different people and different and sometimes difficult situations.

Aside from the people aspect, studying in this university also toughened me up. Not tough as in I-beat-people-up kind of tough, but tough as a person. I had to leave the safety of my comfort zone, leave my family physically and stay in a place with, quite literally, strangers.

Thank goodness Kalay was the first dorm I got into when I was a freshie. Even though I only knew four people from my high school in the entire dormitory, the whole set-up of Kalay helped a lot. We were strangers, yes, but we were strangers with at least two things in common: we were starting college and we are away from our families. Ten months of living together is no piece of cake. But good things come out of it too. There I met people who I wouldn’t have if I were someplace else, and my life wouldn’t have as fun. Of course I don’t really know that, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.

The biggest blow I had to go through was probably when I was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes. Yeah, that’s the type where you deal with needles and everyday. Every freakin’ day. I happen to be one of the world’s biggest cowards when it comes to needles and blood and injections. But I have no choice. I need insulin in my system and the only way for me get it is through regular injection. Talk about painful. But I couldn’t decide which hurts more, daily injections (for forever) or giving up sweets. I probably have the world’s biggest sweet tooth, you see.

But I came through it, and I am now dealing with it quite gracefully, haha, though not totally unscathed. It was something that not only I had to go through alone. A lot of adjustments and getting used to was needed, and it really took a while. My family had to make room for all the change – physically and otherwise. I sure shed a lot of tears (It’s really no joke when the doctor tells you to stop eating ice cream.) and I made my mother, and take this, my father cry. No, I am not proud that I made my parents cry and I never want to do that to them again. I’m just saying that I was that impossible. I was cranky all the time and I didn’t listen to whatever it was they were telling me to do or not to do. Even if it was for my own good.

Well, I learned then that in my family, it’s really not about whether it’s easy or difficult. It’s about whether it can be done or not. Because i won't be alone to face whatever it is. And that fact makes everything, even the unknown, less scary.

Funny how the question “Who am I?” can generate all these thoughts eh?

Word Count: 1515

standing still

2007-11-05T02:02:00.000-08:00

i think i lost myself somewhere. please make me see sense. please please please oh please.

random thoughts

2007-10-01T06:30:00.000-07:00

blog blog blog..

wala lang.. may anak na si dennis trillo kaya depressed na naman ako.. haha.. jokeness.. *asus!!*
weh! haha.. wala lang.. *napakatino naman ng post.. tsk tsk..*

whatever.. hmm.. lemme see.. wala akong maisip na i-blog eh.. haha.. parang wala nang blogworthy stuff sa life ko eh.. haha.. *ick! ang korny.. kadiri..*

haha.. patay ah.. *patay what?* wala.. ewan.. paramdam lang.. haha..

question: bakit may mga bagay na kahit alam mo kung bakit ang hirap talagang ma-gets??

wala lang.. hay buhay..

just checking

2007-09-29T07:52:00.000-07:00

wow.. buhay pa?? haha..

so.. kumusta naman na ang mundo?? aba'y ewan.. ganun pren.. bilog..

*so ikaw eden, kumusta naman na ang mundo mo??*

hmm.. kumusta na nga ba ako??

quick rundown lang:
-diabetic nko
-i died last sem(and died again and again and again)
-buhay nko ulit

oh well.. i'm basically okay.. hindi naman ako suicidal.. masaya ako, i guess, pero i could be happier.. may times pa rin gusto kong umiyak na lang..

marami pa rin akong hindi naiintindihan, pero sa dami ng mga nangyari, marami din naman akong natutunan..

korni kung korni, nasubukan ko nang masaktan.. hindi pa ako gumagaling, sa totoo lang.. pero ganun talaga siguro yun.. wala naman kasing nagsabing mabilis magheal ang mga bagay-bagay..

kasalanan ko rin kasi siguro.. siguro if i put more effort, keri na e.. kaya lang, ewan.. natatakot akong bumitaw..oo, alam ko wala naman talaga akong pinanghahawakang kahit ano.. pero yun nga siguro un eh, mahirap bitawan ang hindi mo hawak.. *yuck, ang korni. nakakasuka. blech!*

aw shaddap.. wala lang.. ge

iyak eden. iyak.

2006-12-28T01:21:00.000-08:00

It’s been ages since my last post.. Hehe.. *Waaaaah! Buhay ka pa pala?!* Yeah.. Unfortunately.. Haha.. Parang suicidal lang ah.. *Ick! Ang drama!* Whatever.. Haha.. I don’t really feel like blogging nowadays. Nothing’s happening. There’s no interesting stuff to blog about.. *Yada yada yada*.. But what the heck.. Hehe..

Christmas came and went just like that.. [Oh sheesh.. My mom just gave me good news. I need to have my blood checked.. Gaaah! I hate needles! Waaaah! Dugo! Dugo! Dugo! Oh men!] So anyway, back to dramaqueen_mode..

Christmas is painted all over the city.. The lights, the red-white-green color scheme, presents, trees, mistletoes, the list goes on and on.. It’s too hard to miss it.. [Sigh] I just don’t get it.. *Christmas?* Aw shaddap.. How come I don’t feel it anymore? Maybe you’re dead.. Haha.. Funny.. Not.. [My goodness.. I’m tipsy.. May tama ba ang red wine?? Or maybe it’s just me..hehe..]

Hay.. Ewan..

Oh well.. I guess it’s really true then.. Christmas is for kids.. *Ay sa wakas.. Umamin din na hindi na siya kid.. Guraaaang!! Bwahaha.. Guraaaang!* Ay whatever.. I mean, back then, as early as the first –ber month, well, feeling ko pasko na.. Ang vague.. haha.. Basta.. I know you get what I mean.. And then now.. It’s really different.. It feels different.. Actually, like what I’ve mentioned for the umpteenth time, I don’t feel it anymore. I dunno, maybe I’m just plain crazy, you know, imagining too much..hehe..

Now don’t get me wrong.. I haven’t turned into this Grinch of some kind who doesn’t appreciate Christmas.. I do.. I still do.. It's just that.. er.. Waaah! Ewan..*Oh dear.. Maybe it’s just the wine taking it’s toll on you.. wahaha..* Whatever..

Sheesh.. Too much negative energy.. Enough of that. ‘Tis the season to be jolly, remember? Haha.. It’s the wine, alright.. I’m nuts![ And speaking of nuts, Gonuts just opened a branch here.. Hooray!]

Moving on.. [to more important stuff..haha]

Everyone! Guys! Bro! Pare! Tol! Dude! Sis! Dudettes! Bakla! Ate! Kuya! Let’s not forget the heart of the season, ait? =) Let’s not forget the CHRIST in Christmas.. Nevermind that there are no heaps of gifts under the tree come Christmas morning.. *Ows??* Nevermind that you don’t feel the spirit anymore[Haha.. Parinig sa sarili..Yeouch..] Nevermind that you don’t get to eat a lot during Noche Buena and Media Noche.. *Oh men!*..haha.. Kasi nga di ba.. It’s not about all that.. It’s not about us.. It’s about Him..=)

And besides.. Consider yourselves lucky.. Lots of people in Bicol and all the others who were struck by different calamities just before the holidays barely have enough to get by. Nothing more to celebrate Christmas with.. We’re blessed guys. We are so, so blessed.. We’ve got to admit that.. No matter what state our acads are in..haha.. No matter if we don’t have much.. we have each other and it’s what really counts..

Tama na.. Masyado nang deep.. Nalulunod na ako.. Ish..hehe..

kablugsh!

2006-12-01T06:20:00.001-08:00

I'm blogging for the second time today, which is, er, a first.. *E bakit ba kasi??*

Ay ewan.. For no apparent reason, I feel like crying.. Okay, so maybe I know why, but I'm not telling..Duhness..

So anyway, I can't cry here,duh, coz if I did, my mom would probably go ballistic..haha.. Xempre kasi hindi ko din naman sasabihin sa kanya kung bakit di ba?? haha.. So yun, hindi ako pwedeng umiyak dito.. At dahil blogs are made for ranting, tadaaaa!! Nandito ako ngayon.. Nag-eemote..haha..

I hate the world today. No, I am not about to launch into a song. Argh! I hate myself.. I'm so messed up, I'm not even sane enough to string words to form a decent sentence.. I hate this.. And this freakin' dial-up took ages to connect.. Dursh.. I shouldv'e been online two thousand years ago.. Sheesh.. *Huwaaaw.. Biat-- er, Reming comin' through..* Aw shaddap..

Anywho.. What I want to say is.. Ewan..

Dude, make up your mind.. I'm not psychic, you know?? Heck.. You know that.. Waaaaa!! This not good. This driving Eden nuts. This baaaad..

*Ayun naman pala.. Sino si Dude??*

Wala..

Sheesh..

intuition is nothing

2006-11-30T23:31:00.000-08:00

Too much expectations lead to disappointments. Expecting something , in the first place, almost always leads to pain. That's the reason why people get hurt. They shouldn't blame fate, or life, or love. They should blame themselves. Because it is possible to love without expecting anything. But that would be martyrdom. And, well, di na uso yun ngayon. The trend nowadays is to fight for what you believe in, for what you feel. Nevermind that it hurts. Nevermind that sometimes, what you are fighting for is a lost cause. Nevermind that the battle you are fighting in has already been fought. And nevermind that you are also hurting other people in the process.

Because people are selfish. Yes, it all comes down to this. Why else would we fight for a person? Because we want this person to be ours. Why else would we fight for what we believe in? Because we want to prove that we're right.

And why, eventhough it hurts, do we let go of people we love? Because we want them to be happy. Nevermind that it's not with us. And eventhough it hurts like hell, we still do it anyway, thinking that we're doing it for the one person that we love. But no. We do it for ourselves. Yes, we want our loved ones happy. But why? Because seeing them happy makes us happy. Get it?

Martyrdom? Nope.

Selfishness is more like it.

And my point is?? Wala. Nothing. Nada. Non.

awkward moment

2006-11-25T08:43:00.000-08:00

My gosh.. Define awkward moment..

Izz like deeze..

We were in boardwalk around mga an hour ago.. We, meaning, moi, si mama, at si papa.. [Wahaha.. Oh yezz, feeling-feelingan only child aketch ngayon..] We were watching some band perform.. Ang cute ng kanilang vocalists.. Parehong, er, healthy..haha.. The lady vocalist kinda reminded me of Ate Paning[Ate Paning is our dormitory's house parent].. Haha.. Imagine Ate Paning in a really short skirt [Read: Around eight to ten inches above the knee] and black sleeveless top[spag straps to be exact].. Get the picture?? Wehehe.. Aside from reminding me of Ate Paning, she also reminded me of marshmallows..haha.. And my gulay, she can dance.. Promise.. *Wushu.. At nainggit ka naman??* Hehe.. Wacheber.. Where was I?? Oh yeah, there we were, nanonood. Then the song that they were gonna play next was Wherever You will Go from The Calling.. She introduced it, and she pronounced the word "The" with the 'j' sound [malabo ba? di yan.. Just sustitute 'j' for 'th' and then you'll get it..Sa mga hindi maka-gets, ewan ko na lang.. Research..haha].. Pasaway kasi..

Tapos, eto ngayon, my mom was like, "Ano yung [insert word here]??" And I was like, "Ewan..", while trying very hard not to choke on the Zagu that I was guzzling down, [Yes ladies and gents, it is possible to choke on pearl shakes, and I am not talking about the pearl part, mind you, given the abovementioned situation..]

I mean, how the he-- was I supposed to tell my mom what IT meant, right?? It was just plain weird. *raises eyebrows* The situation, I mean.. Teehee.. And kinda embarassing.. Like when you're watching a really mushy movie with your dad around, only worse..haha..

So moving on, after the song, they said they were going to play "Alleluiah" by Bamboo.. Well, they played "Alleluliah" alright, you know "Alleluiah", the church song?? And my mom was suddenly quiet, and I thought, "Uh oh.. Wrong move..", knowing how my mom was with church stuff.. But whatever, she didn't say anything so maybe she didn't take it to heart naman..hehe.. And yeah, they played the one by Bamboo too, only they altered the lyrics.. It was er, green, really.. My gulay.. Ang weird talaga..

Oh well.. My mom surprises me sometimes.. She said she enjoyed the band.. Good for her.. I just hope she won't go around asking for what, er, the word, means..haha..

2006-11-17T22:55:00.000-08:00

To blog or not to blog
That is the question..
Wehehe..

Hello world!!
Matapos ang madugong enrollment, er.. Wala lang.. Ayun, tapos na. Bow..

Hehe.. Wala pa rin akong kwenta.. Kaklase ko si Dr House!!! Waaaah!! Haha.. Wala lang.. Sharing..

Question: Anong sense ng gagawa ng class pero ying prof na ilalagay sa crs eh nasa States naman at sa January pa babalik?? Wahtever.. Ang labo talaga ng UP..

May assignment na ako pero hindi k pa ginagawa.. Wahaha.. *Tama yan, simulan mo nang magprocratinate ngayon pa lang..* Yeah.. Haha

Astig ang prof ko sa Mp..Yun lang..

Bow.

blah blah blah

2006-11-10T08:07:00.000-08:00

After two thousand years.. hindi pa rin ako enrolled.. bow..
Ang bait kong bata.. Kung bakit ba naman kasi napaka-paimportante ng mga MST na yan?!?!

Hindi ko na alam kung anong nangyayari sa mundo.. Bakit ganun?? *Bakit what??* Wala.. *Labo mo dude!*Sana kasindali na lang ng freecell lahat.. Yung tipong pag hindi na keri, press F2.. tapos i-clear yung stats..para back to zero uli.. Sheesh..

Wow.. It's too early.. Hindi pa man nagsisimula ang sem eh I'm screwed up na.. Ish..*Ang drama.. Tulog lang yan..*

Yeah.. Siguro nga..

I need real food..

*nasaan na ang matinong poooost???*

tsaka na.. pag matino na ako uli mag-isip..
vavush..

bestest best best..harhar

2006-10-29T05:47:00.000-08:00

57 days to go..

Tadaa!! As promised, heto na aaaang......

TOP TEN CUTE AND/OR PINAKA-GOOD LOOKING GUYS SA KALAY BATCH 05-06 AYON KAY.. duh.. YOURS TRULY..hehe..

Siyempre hindi ko ilalagay yung mga pangalan nila di ba? Wehehe.. Madaya ako eh.. Tsaka matagal nang nauso ang code names no.. At isa pa, kumusta naman ako kung by some stroke of (bad??) luck eh merong isa sa kanila na nakabasa at ibinalita sa kanilang lahat?? Baka isipin pa nila crush ko sila lahat no.. Dursh.. UP is too small.. Mahirap i-risk..hehe.. Dalawang taon mahigit ko pa silang makakasalamuha.. *Ang haba naman ng intro..*

O siya, eto na talaga..

#10 - Baby ni Pare

*Baby ni Pare?!* Wehehe.. Ang cute niya.. Promise..Tapos ang galing pa maglaro ng ----e-ball..*Pare?? Huy, pakipaliwanag!* Ayaw..haha.. Ay, hindi pala siya cute lang.. Papasa na siyang gwapo.. Tapos friendly pa.. Laging nakangiti tapos namamansin.. Siyempre dagdag pogi points di ba? *BAKIT BABY NI PARE??* Wahaha.. Eh kasi baby siya ni pare.. Period.

#9 - Big Brother
Bakit Big Brother?? Eh kasi, duh, hindi naman siguro mahirap i-figure out yun no.. [Ang hindi maka-gets..Sorry..Wala akong balak mag-explain..] Si Big Brother yung isa sa mga pinaka {hint..hint}ideal na guys sa Kalai.. Christian, mabait, malambing, cute, sweet, matalino, thoughtful, and so on.. Ang dami ngang nabihag nito eh.. hehe.. Pero kamo [sharing moment..haha], hindi ko alam kung bakit, hini ako dumaan sa stage na nagka-crush ako sa kanya.. *Oooooowssss???* D-uh.. Totoo.. Natuwa, oo..Pero crush?? Nah.. Besides, hindi naman lahat ng gwapo crush mo na di ba?? *Oh well..*

#8 - Tatay ni Briggs

Konting background: Briggs >> Stuffed Toy ni Kot

No.. Hindi siya ang nagbigay.. *Eh bakit tatay??* Long story short, masyado siyang naaliw kay Briggs minsan.. Etong guy na 'to, hindi ko rin naging crush.. *Masyado namang defensive 'to..* Pero my gulay.. Ang ngiti nitong taong 'to pwedeng magpailaw ng bumbilya..Wahaha.. *Huwaaaaaaw!! Aus ka rin magdescribe eh.. Astig pala yan eh.. Tamang-tama, yung barrio namin hindi pa inaabot ng meralco.. Malaki matutulong nya dun..* Eh basta.. Promise.. Pag ngumingiti siya kasama pati mata.. Tapos parang everything's a li'l brighter.. haha.. My gulay.. Oo nga, ang weird ko magdescribe..Ewan..Nyahaha.. *Nalulunod na sa "basta" at "ewan" ang post mo..* Eh ano?? Wakkamakialam.. Wehehe.. Basta.. Toink! Nakakahawa yung ngiti niya.. Yun..

#7 - Umakyat, Nag-igib, Nalaglag
O diba, ang creative ng code name..harhar.. Ang dali namang hulaan.. Ang hindi maka-gets.. Wala.. Gudlak..

Si Guy #7, malakas ang dating.. Define malakas?? Well, sa konsepto niya, lamang lang ng konti si Milenyo.. hehe.. *Ows??* He owns one of those intent stares that will make your heart beat slower for at least two seconds..wahaha.. Or kung hindi man ganun ang epekto ng titig niya, humanda ka pag ikaw nginitian.. Alam mo yung mga banat na "Ngiti pa lang, ulam na"?? *Snorts* Yun.. Pinagdadamot yata nito yung ngiti niya eh.. Pero wag ka, bihira man, his smiles are golden.. harhar.. Pwedeng isanla..

#6 - Count Dracula
Si Count Dracula naman.. Ewan.. Hindi siya cute.. Hindi rin siya good looking.. *Nabasa mo ba yung title ng list 'ne?? Baka naliligaw ka ng entry..* Hindi eh.. Dito talaga..hehe.. Basta.. Malakas ang dating niya.. *[rolls eyeballs] Iha, cute/good looking ang sabi.. Iba yun sa malakas ang dating..* Weh! Wakkanga sabi eh.. Si Count Dracula.. Maputi.. maputing-maputi.. Nakakabulag sa puti..[at may nabulag na nga siya..hmp..wehehe] *Tapos??* Ewan.. Ay, kaiba din ang mata nito.. *O?? Kulay violet??* Hindi.. Basta.. Kaya nga Count Dracula eh.. Go figure..

#5 - Alagad ni CB
*Captain Barbell??* Wehe.. Hindi.. Captain Bakekang.. Dursh.. Isa siya sa mga anak ni CB..*Crystal?? Charming??* Er..No dear.. Basta.. Anak, o sige, brother na lang pala ni CB..*Saglit, saglit.. Nalilito ako.. Akala ko ba alagad??* Wehe.. Whatever suits you..haha..

Etong taong 'to, kinakarir lahat.. Although hindi siguro lahat aagree sa akin na kasama siya sa list *at panglima pa nga*.. I don't care.. Kung gusto nila, gawa na lang sila ng sarili nilang list na hindi siya kasama..duh..

So yun.. Even before pa kami na-introduce formally - meaning official na ang aming pagkakakilala..hehe - medyo napapansin ko na na may potential siyang maging cute..hekhek.. Kaya lang his reputation precedes him eh.. Kahit saan..hehe.. May mga negative energy na bumabalot sa kanyang image.. Pero chorva lang yun.. Mabait talaga siya.. Akala ko rin dati maangas 'to eh.. Pero sabi nga, "First impressions almost always never last".. At ngayon.. Oh well.. Akin na lang yun..harhar..

#4 - Dr. House
Wehehe.. O diba, ayos.. Title ng palabas.. Hindi siya mahilig dito..(i think).. At hindi rin siya kahawig nung bida..(Ata..dko pa napapanood yun eh..haha)

Si Dr. House..uhmm..Gwapo..hehe.. Isa sa mga unang naka-catch ng attention ko sa Kalai.. Curly hair(na unruly..kaya cute..hehe).. Nice eyes.. Talented pa..

*Bakit Dr. House?* Ah yun? I got the idea from Jann. May nagkwento daw kasi sa kanya 'bout the series. Pagsabi daw sa kanya nung title, he asked, "Archi ba siya?", sabi hindi naman daw. Dr. daw talaga..

*Ano namang kinalaman nun?* Nyahaha.. Nandun na yung clue.. Figure it out na lang..

#3 - "Success!! Cool!!"
Etong si Number 3 yung pinakamajor crush ko talaga.. NOON..hehe.. Past is past..harhar..

Gwapo siya.. *Duh* At malakas ang dating.. Tsaka hindi physical ang panghatak niya eh.. Ewan.. Totoong tao 'to..*Ba't yung iba?? Nagpapanggap??* Weh.. Promise.. *Nagpapanggap nga yung iba??* Hindi noh.. Siya yung tipong, "Eh ano kung jologs?? Kung ayaw mo, wag mo!" Hehe..

Vain din 'to.. SOBRA.. Mas vain pa ata sa akin eh..*[taas kilay]* At sobrang conceited.. Pero siyempre in a cute kinda way.. *Meron nun??*

Medyo matagal din akong naloko nitong kumag na 'to eh.. Along with so many others.. Pero sabi ko nga.. THAT WAS THEN..haha *Eh bakit 3rd lang siya??* Eh kasi malamang may mas gwapo pa sa kanya no..*Na crush mo??* Hindi nga eh.. Weird no??

BTW, yung code name niya ay kinuha ko dun sa speech niya dati..wahaha.. Pero hindi talaga ganyan ang grammar niyan ha.. Masyado lang siyang natangay ng moment..hehe

#2 - SuperOink
*SuperOink?? Hindi ba SuperBoink yun dapat??* Wag ka makialam.. Alam ko kung sino si Superboink no.. At no, Superoink talaga yan.. Kaya yan ang code name niyan kasi matakaw.. Sobrang takaw..{hint..hint}

Maraming fans 'to.. As in..{hint uli}.. Paano ba naman kasi.. Matangkad.. Maputi.. May kakaibang aura..haha..*Ano daw??* Translation: May dating..Duh..[Waaaaaaah!! (To SuperOink)ang laki na ng ulo moooo!!!] Tas yun nga, talented.. At..uhmm.. ge na nga.. Eh..Hindi siya pangit..hehe.. *[blank face]* O sha, sha, cute.. Err.. Minsan..*Ano??* Minsan lumalampas siya sa line, nagiging gwapo..[There, I said it..]

Yung name niya yung isa sa 2 or 3 na madalas isagot pag tinanong mo yung female half ng Kalai ng "Who's ur crush".. Pero gaya ni Big Brother, hindi ko rin siya naging crush.. hehe.. Sa hindi maipaliwanag na dahilan.. *Ooooowwwsss??* Oo nga.. wehehe.. pero we're friends.. Mahal ko 'tong taong 'to.. Hindi kasi normal eh.. Kelangang intindihin..tsk tsk.. [Hoy! Kung nagbabasa ka ngayon alam kong alam mo kung sino ka.. wehehe..At alam mo ba. ilalagay sana kita sa #1 spot kaya lang naisip ko, magkaka-hydrocephalus ka na kapag ginawa ko pa yun.. Kaya makuntento kang pangalawa ka.. At isa pa, ikaw na rin naman ang nagsabi na.. Basta.. May sinabi ka dati.. Di ko lang maalala..nyahaha..]

At.. (drum roll pls..)

#1 - Joshua Mosqueda Aniversario

Siyempre hindi na ako nag-isip ng code name dba?? Bukod sa mahirap, hindi naman na kelangan eh..hehe

Si Jushjush(or Meowskie..hehe)....

Maputi.

May cute na dimples.

Mabait.

Makulit.

Mapanakit..*Ngyay*..hehe

Matakaw.

Malakas mantrip.

Sweet.

May boses.

At higit sa lahat..

MAGALING SUMAYAW.

Yung tipong matutunaw ka pag siya na yung nasa dancefloor.. Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit o kung papaano niya ginagawa yun.. Basta.. Ewan.. Madalas ko ngang linya sa kanya dati.."Naku Jushwa, delikado.. Wag kang laging magsasayaw.. Maraming maiinlab syo.. Mahirap na.. Nyahaha.." *Ang korni..* Weh! Eh sa totoo eh..haha..

At lilinawin ko lang po.. Hindi siya bading.. Straight po siya.. Promise..

O ayan.. Sampu na yan..wehehe.. Ang hirap mag-isip.. Pigang-piga na yan ha?? wahaha..

Suggest kayo ng susunod..wehehe..

Ge.. Vavush!

while watching harry potter for the umpteenth time

2006-10-27T01:06:00.000-07:00

59 days na lang..

At dahil sobrang exciting ng aking sembreak, wala akong maipost na matino dito.. Napakaproductive ko, at bilang patunay, *Aba, kumusta naman ang tagalog?* Aw, shaddap!.. So yun nga, bilang patunay, *Ulit-ulit* Hanubaaaa??!!! Ay basta, so yun na nga, bilang patunay, (ulit-ulit nga..hehe) eto.. Gumawa ako ng mga listahan ng mga anik-anik.. Simula tayo saaaaaaa....

TOP FIVE MOST EMBARASSING MOMENTS NI EDEN

*Lima lang??*

Sadyang mapaglaro talaga si Tadhana, at sa hindi ko maipaliwanag na dahilan, isa ako sa mga maswerteng nilalang na napili niyang pagtripan.. Ewan ko nga ba.. Hindi na siya nakuntentong minsan or dalawang beses.. Sa sobrang daming beses na, I've lost count.. At kahit masakit, kelangan kong tanggapin na hindi pa siya tapos sken.. *Sheesh.. anong klaseng intro ba naman yan??*

Simulan na nga lang natin..

#5 Kalayaan Residence Hall(Mess Hall)/Lunch time

Pagkakuha ko ng food ko dun kila ate someone, siyempre dumiretso ako sa table namin.. At dahil may bitbit nga ako - hindi ko rin alam kung bakit hindi ko na lang muna nilapag yung dala ko - *Duh.. Kasi --nga ka..* I used my foot para ilapit sken yung upuan ko.. Eh madalas ko namang ginagawa yun, so carry lang.. Eh kaso, nagkamali siguro ako tiyempo, pag-upo ko, well..uhmm.. hindi sumakto yung upuan.. Gumalaw siya mag-isa, I swear.. *Weh??* Eh.. Basta.. Yun.. I fell, butt-first.. At habang nalalaglag ako, parang hindi pa nagreregister kung anong nangyayari..hehe.. Bigla na lang, parang hindi tama 'to.. Tas yun na pala yun.. Sa totoo lang ok lang sana eh.. Kaya lang may characters eh..hehe.. Kasama namin sa table si Kuya Aict.. O diba?? Si Kuya Aict lang naman ang witness ko.. Sa mga hindi nakakaalam, si Kuya Aict lang naman ang isa sa pinaka na RA sa kalay.. Pinakacute, pinakasweet, pinakamabait, pinaka-astig, pinaka[insert positive adjective here].. Ais no?? At eto pa ngayon, Chevy, who was sitting right next to me(ata), stood up, laughing.. She pointed at me and shouted, SHOUTED, addressing no one in particular (pero probably lahat ng sangkatauhan na nasa mess hall at that time)said, "Nakita niyo yun?? NAKITA NIYO YUN?? BWAHAHA.. NAHULOG SIYA!! NAHULOG SIYAAAA!! WAHAHAHA!!" Wow.. Nice one DQ, salamat..

#4 Kalayaan Residence Hall *Ulit??* (Mess Hall) / Lunch time *Na naman??*

Oh well.. Mukhang lucky talaga ako sa lugar na 'to eh.. *O, what happened this time??* This time around, wala na si Kuya Aict, pero may character pa rin..hehe.. *Sino??* Basta.. Pasalamat na lang ako at nakatalikod siya.. Sana hindi niya nakita, or kahit magpretend na lang siya na hindi niya nakita.. hehe..Ganun uli, galing kila ate someone, bitbit ko uli yung tray ko papunta sa table namin.. *Duh..Tapos nalaglag ka uli?? Boooriiing..* Nah-uh.. Hindi ako yung nalaglag.. Yung tray ko.. Pag lapag ko kasi sa table gumalaw uli mag-isa yung lamesa tapos hindi sumakto yung tray ko, kaya ayun, nag-darna.. Lumipad papunta sa kawalan, kasama siyempre lahat ng laman.. Ang saya nga eh.. Ang ingay kasi, lumingon tuloy lahat.. Ang sarap magpalamon sa lupa nung time na yun.. At dahil hindi ko naman na pwedeng kainin yung nasa lapag - duh, ano ako, aso?? - *Actually......Wahaha* Weh! So yun, wala akong choice kundi bumili na lang uli ng food.. Pag lapit ko, biglang nagbulungan yung mga ate at kuya.. Nagpanic naman ako, baka may masasamang-looob sa paligid at tanging ako na lamang ang hindi pa nakakaalam.. Nang biglang may isang kuya na naglakas-loob at tinanong ako..

Kuya: "Ikaw yung kanina di ba??"

Ako: blank face. blink. blink. "Ha?"

Kuya: "Yung nalaglagan ng tray ba.."

Ako(To myself) Hindiiiii!! Lupa, make lamon me noooooowwww!! (To kuya)"Ay.. opo.."

Kuya: "Kuha ka ulit oh.."

Ako:"Ay ok lang po.. Salamat na lang.." (To myself)Busog na po ako.. Nalunok ko na po yung pride ko.."
'stig dba?? Kilala na ako nila kuya.. Ako yung girl-na-aanga-anga-kaya-lumipad-yung-tray.. Yeah!

#3 Sa tapat ng Cindy's/Uwian

High school pa ako nun..*Wow.. Memories..hekhek* Madami kaming puro girls nun.. Pupunta kami somewhere..*Malamang* Eh uneven yung ground.. Hindi ko napansin na steep na pala talaga yung nilalakaran namin.. *O tapos??* Ayun.. Natapilok ako.. Bow..

Ay nga pala, nagkataon lang naman na may nakahintong jeep sa tapat ko nun, at uwian din nung school na malapit dun.. Nung bumagsak ako, tiningnan lang ako nung classmate ko, as in parang walang nangyari.. Akala niya may pinulot lang daw ako.. Kumusta naman dba?? Ang tagal nagregister sa kanya na natapilok na pala ako, and when it hit her, instead of helping me, tumawa lang siya ng tumawa, yung tawa na parang walang bukas.. Nagtatawag ata talaga siya ng attention eh.. *Wow.. You have really good friends..* Yeah, I know.. At pagtayo ko, guess what.. *What??* Nagpalakpakan yung mga nakakita.. Define nakakahiya diba?? Nagpalakpakan talaga silang lahat.. At may narinig pa 'kong sumigaw na "Nice one Miss!!".. At para mas madali nila akong makilala, orange ang bag na gamit ko.. Bright orange.. Sheesh.. Whatever..

#2 Stage (Gym ng RS) / Bb. Agham Chorva

High school ako uli nun.. Ang trip naman ni tadhana?? Eto.. Wala akong nagawa.. kahit anong iyak at sigaw ko dun sa panot na bansot na maitim na malaki ang tiyan na pangit na adviser namin sa research *Sinigawan mo??* oo, ako yung mapalad na representative ng IV-Pt.. Fastforward na tayo.. Nung talent chorva na, siyempre wala naman akong ibang pwedeng gawin dba?? Kumanta na lang ako.. *Kanta?? Ikaw?* Ay basta.. yun.. Ay mali.. hindi pala kanta yung talent ko.. PUMIYOK pala.. Impront op da hul skul populace.. Ang saya talaga.. At nakuha yun on cam.. Thanks to Jann.. Sheesh.. Nakuha din yung part na..Nevermind.. NEXT!!

At #1 we haaaaaaave.....
(drum roll pls...)

2nd year college / Molave Waiting Shed (Actually, yung pedestrian lane sa tapat ng Molave Waiting shed..)

Galing ako sa gapo, at pabalik na akong dorm nun.. Nakasakay ako sa jeep..Malamang.. Pagtapat sa waiting shed, siyempre pumara ako..Tapoooosss... Eto na ngayon..

Sa katangahang palad.. Ulupong yung jeepney driver.. Hindi ata niya alam na kelangan mag-full stop siya pag may bababa.. Duh.. I mean,saan naman siya nag-aral ng driving kung hindi nia alam yun dba??

Turns out, sa bundok siya nag-aral at hindi niya nga alam..

Hindi siya nag-full stop..

Na-out of balance ako..

Bagsak ako..

Sa daan..

All fours..

Narinig ko pa yung collective na gasp ng mga tao sa loob ng jeep.. [Puno nga pala yung jeep nun]

Pati yung mga gamit ko nadamay.. Laglag lahat.. Nagkalat sa GITNA NG DAAN..

At get this, merong nakasunod sa likod namin na pajero..

Pasalamat na lang ako at nakahinto siya.. Kung hindi.. Ewan.. Wag nang isipin..

At ang mabait na jeepney driver, huminto lang nang tuluyan nang ako ay naka-plakda na sa gitna ng kalye..

Sheesh..

Go Manong!! Go!! Pagpalain ka sana ni tadhana..

Humanda ka..

Ako ang iyong karma..
Bwahahahaha!!!!

There you go.. Yun na yun..harhar.. Sa mga naghihintay ng punchline jan, wala.. period na dun..

What's next? Ang Top 5(or ten siguro,,hehe) na Cutest/Pinakagoodlooking Guys sa Kalay ayon kay Eden.. Wahaha.. Specific no?? hehe..So yun.. Abangan..harhar

Ciao!

INC ako sa MP!!!!!!!waah!!

2006-10-24T09:17:00.000-07:00

61 days to go..

I just don't get why some people still have the guts to stand in front of an audience and perform kahit na alam nilang ah, eh, [can't think of the right word, I'm too articulate talaga, I hate myself] basta.. Chorva.. I mean, gaaaah!! Ano ba?? At least naman sana they had the decency to dress properly di ba?? Imagine this: yung dalawang female vocalists were wearing darna costumes... Okey.. So hindi talaga darna costume, parang ganun lang.. In black.. Parang swimsuit, tapos leather shorts.. Ay, hindi shorts yun eh, boyleg na ata yun.. Then a huge belt.. I dunno kung para san yung belt, actually..*Maluwag yung shorts.. Duh..* Nyehe.. Ayus yun ah.. Plus boots.. Tapos meron din silang isang male vocalist.. At sheesh, ang outfit.. Think Masulados.. Yes.. My gulay.. Black leather pants, black sando, black everything, oh, except the hair.. May red strips.. Yung bangs niya ata yun.. Ayus di ba??

Ewan.. Pero y'know what?? I'm sad..*Toink! You need a really good explanation for that one..* Weh.. Lemme finish kasi.. *Fine..* Eh kasi naman eh.. When they had to thank the sponsors of the event, they had to read from a piece of paper.. And guess what?? *Wut??* They can't read.. Ay, they can, pero just barely... At ang masaklap pa, parang wala lang sa kanila yun.. Naisip ko tuloy, alam kaya nila what they're singing about?? Tas sabi ng kapatid ko, "Parang lyrics lang ni Alyssa Alano ah.." Wala lang.. Ako yung nalungkot for them.. *Aaaaaaawwww..* Eh kasi naman eh.. Basta..Ewan.. *Asuuuuus..* Hehe.. Whatever.. Siguro nga wala nkong pakialam dun.. Pero.. Basta.. Bahala na..

Nababangag na ako.. Malamig na.. Pasko naaaaa!! * Weh! Excited 'to..* Hehe.. Hindi naman gaano.. Gusto ko lang ng Lantern Parade..harhar.. Tsaka tumambay 'round peyups.. Ang ganda kasi ng place pag malamig..At malufet ang lights.. hehe..Sharing..

Ang dami kong gustong gawin.. Pero parang laging wala akong oras.. *My dear, tamad ka lang talaga..* Teehee.. Oo nga siguro.. So far, nakaka-two days pa lang ako sa bahay.. At ang routine ko?? Gising ng late-kain ng breakfast-tunganga-kain ng lunch-nood konti-tulog-gising-kain dinner-internet til madaling-araw.. *Ick.. Babui..* Hehe.. Medyo nga.. Kumusta naman ako pagbalik ko ng UP di ba?? Haha.. Sana marecognize pa nila 'ko.. Toink!

Ang labo naman.. Malamig nga, mainit naman.. *Ano daw?* Hehe.. Promise!!

Di na 'ko uli galit kay guy-na-masarap-pabugahan-ng-holen-kay-zuma[walang nagfifeeling!].. Grabe naman ang aking overanalysis.. Ewan.. *Kaya nga overanalysis eh.. Kasi grabe..Duh.. Sigurado ka bang pumasa ka ng UPCAT??* Actually hindi..haha.. Joke lang..Naman naman no..

Waaaaaaaaaaah!! Gusto kong pumunta sa.. ah.. eh.. uhmm.. Sa moon!! Yeah!!

Call Me Corny.. See if I Care

2006-10-23T07:10:00.000-07:00

63 days til christmas
(buhay na uli yung countdown..harhar)

Remember guy-na-masarap-pabugahan-ng-holen-kay-zuma?? *O?* Wala.. I hate him.. Naiinis ako.. Sa kanya.. Sa UP.. Sa mundo.. My gulay.. Define pathetic.. Sheesh.. Whatever.. *Drama_queen_mode*

Ay ewan.. Hindi ako makapag-isip ng matino ngayon kaya crap lang itong sinusulat ko.. Isa lang ang sigurado ko, naiinis talaga ako.. Grrrr.. Grabe.. Moodswing lang ba 'to?? Sana nga.. Impernes, napapadalas akong ganito lately.. Sheesh..

Ang bobo ko.. Ang bobo-bobo ko talaga.. Ang bobo ng choices ko.. Ang bobo ng actions ko.. Ang bobo ko.. Period..*Yeah, yeah.. Whatever*

Bakit kasi hindi na ako natuto diba? Ilang beses ko nang sinabi sa sarili ko tapos uulitin ko na naman.. ANO BA NAMAN 'YAN EDEN??KELAN KA BA MADADALA?? ILANG BESES KA BANG PINANGANAK?? HA?? Ewan ko.. HIndi ko alam.. Wala akong maisip na dahilan.. Hindi ko masagot.. Wala.. Ayoko nang mag-isip.. Kakapagod.. Kakaawa naman yung utak ko.. Pauilit-ulit-ulit na lang.. Iba naman... Pahinga muna.. Kahit saglit..

Aaaaaat..

Dahil nagsesenti ako.. Gagawa na lang ako ng.....

Top Ten Things I Hate About Me..
[haha.. sasagarin ko na ang the-world-hates-me-kaya-i-hate-myself-more moment na ito.. minsan-minsan lang naman eh..]

Number Ten: Masyado akong madaldal.. I know I annoy lots of people b'cuz I'm too loud.. Pero ewan.. Hindi ko alam kung bakit hanggang ngayon eh maingay pa rin ako.. Aware naman ako.. Pero nothing's changed.. Whatever.. I can't keep my secrets.. My gulay.. Yung secrets ng iba naitatago ko.. Pero yung akin.. Ay ewan.. I don't blab other people's secrets.. I blab MINE.. Hindio ko nga alam kung meron pa ba akong naki-keep sa sarili ko eh.. *Meron pa.. I mean, yung tipong isa lang yung may alam besides you..hehe..* O? Wow..

Number Nine: I am such a klutz.. Promise.. Yung tipong nakatayo na nga lang matatapilok pa.. *HA??* O dba?? posible un.. Ako pa??

Number Eight: Ang takaw ko.. Hehe.. Sige na nga, hindi ko pala hate yun.. Ano na lang.. uhmmm.. ah..eh.. Ayun!! Ang bagal ko mag-isip!!hehe.. I mean.. HIndi ko agad ma-organize yung thoughts ko pag sinusulat.. Parang ngayon.. Mas gusto kong kinukwento na lang.. Spontaneous ako pag verbal..haha

Number Seven: Duwag ako.. Define duwag?? [in no definite order]
-takot sa multo
-takot sa aso
-takot sa heights
-takot sa tao*what??*
-takot makasakit
-takot sa commitment
-takot mag-isa
-takot sa strange noises sa corridor at night
-takot sa madilim
-takot sa dugo
-takot maiwan
-takot mang-iwan
-takot bumagsak
-takot magrecite..haha
-takot sa public peformances..hehe..
-takot magtake ng risks..
-takot mawala si--*Oo na.. i get your point..Duwag ka.. Next number..*

Number Six: Grabe ako mag-isip.. Paranoid kung paranoid.. As in overanalysis talaga.. Ewan.. Ginawa ko na atang hobby ang pag-ooveranalyze..sheesh.. Lahat na lang talaga.. Kaya ayan..Beware..harhar

Number Five: I talk to myself.. *HUWAAAT??!! REALLY?? YOU MUST BE NUTS!!*

Number Four: I am such a procrastinator.. Really.. Sobrang late na ako gumawa ng mga kelangan kong gawin.. At ito ngayon, natatapos ko kasi.. Kaya ang lakas ng loob ko.. Kasi alam kong matatapos ko naman.. Waaaaah!!

Number Three: Ang senti kong nilalang.. Need proof?? Itong top ten na 'to.. Need I say more??

Number Two: Walang salitang organization sa vocabulary ko. Ang kama ko sa dorm malapit nang hindi matulugan..haha.. *Yuck..* Sobrang disorganized lahat.. kaya pati buhay ko ganito eh.. Ay ewan.. Bahala na..

aaaat..[tantananaaaaan]

Number One: {sigh}
Gasgas na 'to masyado eh.. Pero whatever..

Baluktot ang priorities ko.. Sure, I care 'bout my family(duh), and my acads and stuff.. pero.. Di ba kasi sabi dapat kung may gagawin kang pinakafoundation mo, siguraduhin mong stable yun firm, yung hindi mawawala, yung hindi pabago-bago, yung hindi kayang tangayin ng panahon.. Ewan ko ba.. Ayooko naman isiping tanga ako.. At lalong hindi ako bobo.. Duh.. Pero bakit ganun?? Parang hindi ako gumagamit ng utak pag nag-iisip ako.. *Eh anong ginagamit mo?? Ilong??* Alam ko naman yung consequences.. Alam ko naman kung ano yung dapat.. Alam ko naman kung ano yung tama at mali..Hindi naman sa pinili kong gumawa ng mali ha.. Basta.. Kahit sarili ko kinokontra na ako eh..

Bow.

P.S. Sa may Superman Complex jan.. I need a hero right now..

2006-10-21T04:39:00.000-07:00

Wow.. Hello world..Hehe..

'bout my last post, hindi po ako heartbroken ha..hehe.. My heart's still in my chest, buong-buo.. Sabi nga ni John Lloyd *Yuck.. Quoting from who??!* haha.. Whatever.. Basta un.. Hihiramin ko lang naman eh.. "My heart is in perfect condition right now.." *Eh ano naman kasi yung mga kasentihang nilagay mo dun??* Wala.. Akin na lang yun..hehe

BTW, quick rundown ng nakalipas..

-nanalo kami dun sa comm100 namin.. *yung film??* oo.. un..Haha

-natapos ko ung paper ko sa philo in one day.. *hooray! mabuhay ang dakilang batugan! hooray!*

-tapos ko na rin yung artstud ko..*O eh ano??*

-kulang ako ng isang major sa crs!! waaaah!!

-uwi nko bukas.. Sembreak na!!!! Wahahaha.. *waaaw. ngayon mo lang narealize??*

Sheesh.. Mag-isa na lang ako sa room.. Iniwan na ako ng mga pinakamamahal kong rum8s.. Takot ako.. *Hala kaaaa.. May monster under your bed..Harhar..*

Whatever..

Sorry sa walang-kwentang post..hehe.. Aayusin ko na next time.. Pwamis..

random thoughts

2006-10-16T18:38:00.001-07:00

Someone gave me a pink long-stemmed rose. Grabe. It's so beautiful. Parang napaka-fragile. Kelangan talagang ingatan ba. Tapos yun yung tipong one-of-a-kind. Hindi madaling makahanap ng ganong klaseng bulaklak. Pag nakahanap ka ang swerte mo.

Kaya lang, naputol. Hindi ko naman sinasadya eh. Hindi ko nga napansin kung papaano at kung kelan. Basta nakita ko na lang na putol na pala. Yung lalagyan niya ng tubig nilipat ko dun sa part na naputol. I could just imagine. Masakit siguro sa kanya yung nangyari no? Ako nga na from the outside nakakakita nasaktan eh, siya pa kaya.

Pero alam ko na wala akong magagawa. No matter how hard I try, nangyari na yun eh. It can't be helped. My beautiful rose is slowly dying. Right now, it's not so pretty anymore. It's petals are drying up. Theedges are turniing brown, pero yung nasa loob pink pa rin. Gaya nga ng sabi ko, hindi na siya maganda ngayon. It's going through its death.

I know it's inevitable. Nung binigay pa lang siya sa akin, feeling ko hindi siya pwedeng mamatay. Kasi sobrang ganda niya kaya ayaw kong maniwala na totoo siya. Pero siyempre, narealize ko naman na mamamatay din siya. Kahit gaano pa siya kaganda, malalanta at malalanta talaga. At oo nga, totoo siya. Yung ganda niya, totoong-totoo. Ang galing no? Tama nga, Truth is indeed lovelier than fiction..

Right now, all I can do is wait.. And pray.. And hope for the best.. Ang hopefully, soon, magdry na lahat.. Pag natuyo na siya completely, alam ko, that's the time na magiging maganda na uli siya. Oo, hindi na siya kagaya nung binigay sa akin, yung pink na buhay na buhay.. Pero it's still the same rose. Different color, but still the same.

May nagbago. Malaking pagbabago. Pero alam ko, yun pa rin yung rose ko..

*Eh ano namang pakialam ko sa bulaklak mo?? Ang tagal mong nawala tas pagbalik mo bigla kang nagdadrama tungkol sa halaman.. Tsk tsk..*

naman naman naman

2006-10-10T01:00:00.000-07:00

Define Hell Week:

Oo, wala akong Math or Physics, or Chem, or ES, or CS.. Pero nalulunod rin naman ako noh..

1. Exam ko mamayang 5:30 sa sts at hindi pa ako nagrereview.. *Yey!*

2. Meron akong paper for philo10 na minimum of ten pages due on friday at hindi ko pa nasisimulan kasi hindi ko alam kung tungkol saan at kung paano ko gagawin.. [I just don't understand kung bakit kung alin pa yung mga GE, yun pa yung ang lalakas ng loob magpagawa ng gabundok na papers.. tsk tsk..]

3. Exams rin namin sa philo10 on friday at hindi ko pa nasisimulang basahin yung readings ni sir na halos 1 inch na ang kapal..nyahaha

4. Hindi pa kami nagdadubbing para sa comm100 namin at nagloloko pa ung cd kaya hindi pa rin tapos yung editing at yung pamphlets. We only have __days left before siya ipalabas sa madlang world.. My gulay..

5. Mp179 - yung sequence treatment was due last sept 18, tapos the script was due kahapon, oct 9. Eh magaling ako, ung revision ng sequence treatment ko hindi ko pa naipapasa.. *Mabait na bata!*

6.For bc100, bukas yung shooting. Good luck na lang sa editing.. Bahala na si Lord sa gastos..Wahaha..

7.Art Stud1 - Yung compilation ng papers at gallery visits eh dapat naipasa ko na ages ago. Hindi ko pa rin nasisimulan..*Idol!*

Supermaaaaaaaan!! Nasan ka naaaa???? I need rescuing. NOW.

acads muna

2006-10-07T01:16:00.000-07:00

maghahibernate muna ako... waaaaaah!!..
hehe..
ge..
next time na lang ang updates..

Morning after

2006-10-04T19:38:00.000-07:00

Wow.. Hello world!! hehe..

80 days na lang.. (ata..haha)

Dba I was complaining na wala pa rin akong nafi-feel na christmas spirit?? *O??* Guess what.. *What?* Monday night nakaaupo ako sa steps sa Yakal kasi I was waiting for two of my friends na lumabas.. Di na ako pumasok kasi mainit eh.. Nakatunganga lang ako dun, then biglang a gush of cold wind hit me.. Sandaling-sandali lang.. As in sobrang fleeting.. *Oo na nga..I get your point* Tapos nawala uli.. Ganun-ganun lang.. Pero nung nangyari yun, parang something came over me na.. *Sinapian ka??!* Di ah.. Parang bigla, basta ang weird nga eh, pag-inhale ko na-inhale ko yung christmas..* ILABAS MOOO!!* Weh.. Hindi yun. Yung para bang noon ko lang tumama sken *Ang??* na malapit nang magpasko.. *Asus.. Gumawa ka pa ng essay.. May tawag dun iha.. Christmas spirit.. Yun yung hinahanap mo..* Yun nga ata..hehe.. Kaya lang nawala uli eh.. parang pinatikim lang ako.. Sabi sken nung friend ko, kasi tumatanda ka na.. Wag ko na daw i-expect na yung past christmases ko, ganun pa rin ngayon.. Syempre di ganun yung pagkakasabi pero yun yung thought.. *Aaaaaawww* Sad but true..

I just realized something kahapon.. * Ano??* I. CAN'T. ACT... *Kahapon mo lang narealize yoooon??* Actually, matagal ko ng alam.. Mali pala.. Alam ko pala na I can't act.. Ang na-discover ko kahapon, I suck.. Big time!!.. Sheesh! *Eh bakit ba kasi??* Eh ano eh.. *Ano??* Kelangan namin sa Comm100.. *Huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaat?????? Pinilipt mo pa riiiiin??* Wala akng chooooooice!!! Ayoko rin namna no.. Duh.. *Yuuuuuuuuuuck!!!!!* Oo na.. I get your point.. Ish..

Eto pa.. *Meron pa?!* They want us --including yours truly-- to dance.. *HA?!* Wahaha.. Oo.. Yuck.. Isa lang ang masasabi ko sa mga manonood[nagbabalak o napilitan]: BE SCARED.. BE VERY SCARED! Bwahahahahahahaha!!!

So anyweeeeeey... Ang dami ko pa ring papers..wahaha.. Actually, yung papers na kelangan kong gawin, yun pa rin yung dati.. Hindi ko pa ginagawa.. Wahaha.. *Idol!* Pero gagawa na ako mamaya.. Pramis! *Asa!!* Hehe.. Pero pasalamat na rin ako.. Dalawa lang ang finals ko na written talaga..haha.. Di kelangan mag-aral ng maraming-maraming jargons.. *And so?* Wala lang..

Ay, remember yung prof ko sa philo na crush ko?? *O bakit, bading??* HIndi no.. Nakita ko kagabi with his girlfriend.. Jogging around AcadOval.. *Aaaaaawww.. Wawa ka namn.. Tsk tsk..* Yeah.. I was crushed nga eh.. Haha.. Kidding.. Ang cute nila.. Parang tanga.. Haha.. Di pala.. Parang.. Parang.. *Parang??* Basta.. Ewan.. *Toink!*

Kaya nga pala ako nagrereklamo sa acting skills ko *YOUR LACK OF IT* ah basta un, kasi nga kahapon kami nag-shoot.. THEY MADE ME WEAR A SKIRT!! AND HEELS!! Bago pa man makalahati yung araw tinubuan na ng blisters ung lahat ng daliri ko sa paa.. Dursh.. *Wehehe.. Eh di mukha kang bading??* At parang nangaasar pa sila.. Ang gaganda ng locations namin.. It's either sa maputik na ka-somewhere-an, or sa baku-bako slash basag-basag na sidewalks ng UP, or sa butas-butas na walkways, anywhere 'cept sa matinong ground.. Ang saya di ba?? *Mwehehehehehe.. napaka-kondyusib por walkin'..* At take this: I was in those killer stilletos the whole day.. *Yeouch!* My feet were killing me, I swear.. Nararamdaman kong unti-unting nagsisiputukan yung mga veins ko sa paa.. At hindi akong pwedeng magstay sa isang place nang nakatayo lang dahil binubutas ng heels yung lupa.. Ayos diba?? Darn it..

Aaaat.. *Ano na naman??* Gusto kong maligo sa ulan..hehe *Yan ang maysakit! Sige lang!* Wacheber.. *Teka lang, hindi ba dapat nagreresearch ka??* Ha?? Me?? ~sabay lingon sa paligid~ *Duh.. Sa tingin mo??* Ako nga.. *O, kumusta ang research??* What research??? Mwehehe.. *Aynko Eden.. May mararating ka talaga..* Meron nga.. Bleh!!

Inaantok ako.. ZzzzzZzzzzZZzzzzzz..

Can't sleep.. My feet still hurts.. Alam ko na.. Punta na lang ako sa Planet of the Moon.. Harharhar.. Sinong sasama??
~wink~

P.S. Kinakabahan ako.. Feeling ko mabbadtrip ako later today.. ang ganda kasi ng gising ko eh.. Oh men!

wala akong maisip na matinong title kaya i name this post "The Untitled"

2006-10-01T20:00:00.001-07:00

84 days na lang..
I'm sick..*Poor you..* Seryoso.. I'm not feeling well.. * Eh why are you out?? Dba dapat nagpapahinga ka??* Yuuuuuuuuuuyyy.. Conceeeeeerned.. *Whatthe?!!* Haha..
Waaaaah!! Hindi kami tuloy sa Bubble Gang.. *Aaaaaaaaawwww* Sad nga eh.. I was looking forward to it pa naman sana.. Hehe.. *Eh di pumunta ka pa rin.. Mahirap ba yun??* Ngyay.. Yoko nga..

Malapit na ang sembreak.. Yeeeey!..hehe.. Sa wakas, ilang linggo away from acads..haha.. Hinga naman konti..hehe..

Question: Nakita niyo na ba yung tarp ni Sam Milby na pagkalaki-laki sa SM North?? *How could they possibly miss it??* Aba'y malay.. Pero kung di pa, maswerte ka..Hehe.. I saw it yesterday and it's still haunting me.. So yun nga, pakipaliwanag naman sa akin kung ano ba talaga yung ibig sabihin nung facial expression niya oh.. Kasi he looks constipated eh.. Pero I doubt naman na yun nga talaga yun. Mali lang siguro ako ng interpretation..Hehe..[Sa mga fans ni Sam Milby jan, sorry..hehe..]

Alam niyo, I just don't get it.. What's with boys and inconsistency?? Normal ba talaga yun?? Yung tipong "It's a guy thing".. O nagkataon lang na most of the guys I know are, well.. [Hehe.. Peace tayo!! Mahal ko pa rin naman kayo kahit ganyan kayo eh.. Wahaha..] *Pero kawawa naman si Girl di ba? Di alam kung saan lulugar.. Yung tipong nagyo-yoyo..* Oo nga eh.. Bakit naman kasi ganun.. FYI, mahirap maging girl no, kaya wag naman sana kayong dagdag pahirap.. *Oo nga!!* Ang alam ko kasi, babae dapat yung pabago-bago ng isip.. Pero my gas.. Daig niyo pa ang panahon eh.. Hindi namin kayo kayang ispelengin.. Sheesh.. *May moodswings din ba kayo?? Ngayahaha..* Nakakabobo na rin minsan eh..Hehe.. Kapagod mag-analyze.. *Eh di wag i-analyze.. Yaan mo sila.. Mapapagod din yang mga yan..haha..* Korek.. Ay ewan.. Whatever..

Ish.. Ang sama talaga ng pakiramdam ko.. Naman naman eh.. Bakit naman ngayon pa?? Ang dami kong deadlines na kelangan i-meet.. Darn it.. I think I'm coming down with the flu.. Waaaaaah!! Why meeeee?????! *Kambing??*

Can't. Think. Mind. Not. Functioning. Properly. Need. Rest.

*Normal yun ah..*

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keys me

2006-09-29T06:13:00.000-07:00

87 days before Christmas.
Wow. Wala pa rin akong naririnig na Christmas carols. Need to go to the mall..haha.. Para maka-experience naman ako ng christmas spirit.. tsk tsk.. Malapit nang matapos ang unang -ber month pero di ko pa rin nararamdaman.. Weird..haha

I'm hooooome..haha.. Lahat ng naiwan sa UP, mainggit kayoo..haha.. May kuryente dito.. May signal.. At may nanay ako na magluluto ng totoong lutong-bahay..wahaha.. *yum.. real food.. sa wakas..*

Grabe si Milenyo.. Wasak kung wasak.. Sinira niya ang pinakamamahal kong unibersidad.. Yung dating University of Puno naging Uprooted Puno na ngayon.. Ang lungkot.. Di na kasinglamig ng dati ang freshie walk kong irog..huhuhu..

We walked around AcadOval kanina.. My gulay.. Define dinaanan ng bagyo.. Parang maze yung Freshie walk.. Ang daming puno na nakabalandra sa gitna.. Kewl!!haha.. Tapos may nakita rin kaming branch na nakasabit sa wire sa may poste..*Wow.. how did that happen? Lumipad??* Aba'y malay.. Sa lakas ni Milenyo, hindi imposible yun..

Aaaaat..*What??* Nabaklas yung screen namin sa room.. haha.. Astig.. Buti na lang hindi lumipad sa amin.. *Sayang!* As in nalaglag talaga..hehe.. For some unknown reason, hindi namin naisip [there were five of us] na isara yung bintana to keep whatever from entering our room through the window..*Wow.. Pumasa ka ba talagang UP??* Mas cool sana kung na-uproot din yung trees outside our room tapos nabasag yung windows namin no?? hehe.. Ayos yun.. Sikat..haha..*Ang weird mo mag-isip..*

Brownout buong araw.. At dahil ako ang pinakamasuwerteng nilalang sa buong mundo, nagdecide ang cellphone ko na mag-battery empty.. Yey! Ang saya rin ng lunch at dinner.. By candlelight..haha.. Romantic sana, kaya lang cafeteria food..*Blech!* Pero impernes, ok lang din na madilim kasi hindi ko nakikita kung ano yung kinakain ko..haha..

Got my first sweldo, pero bago ko pa man siya mahawakan, tinangay na siya ng hangin.. Dinala sa kawalan.. Sheesh.. Hindi ko man lang naramdaman..*tsk tsk.. Poor you..* Poor nga.. Yung tipong hampas-lupa-kinda-poor..*bwahaha.. Hampas-lupa!* May hyphen ba talaga yun?? Whatever..

Inis pa rin ako kay guy-na-masarap-pabugahan-ng-holen-kay-Zuma.. Sheesh.. Hindi porket cute ka..*Aba, aba.. Cute?? Hmmm.. Sino na kasi??* Weh! Wakkanga!.. Basta.. Dagdag asar pa yang CRS na yan..

Bakit lahat na lang kinokontra akooo?? Bakiiieeeeeeet??[really_angsty_teenager_mode]

Waw.. Si Bakekang ay may anak.. Ayos.. haha.. *Sinong ama??*

P.S. [Tanong lang]: Bakit hinihingi ni Lumen ang stars at sun at moon kay Lando?? Anong gagawin niya dun?? At san niya itatago yung mga yun?? Wala lang.. Random thoughts..

2006-09-26T05:32:00.000-07:00

My gulay.. I'm in love with Pablo Neruda..haha.. Senti_mode to the nth level..tsk tsk..

Wow.. wala akong maisip na i-post.. I suck.. I don't even know why I'm here in the first place.. sheesh..*duh.. You're here kasi wala ng willing makinig sa mga reklamo mo sa buhay..mwehehehe..* Oh shaddap..

Bakit ko ba kinakausap ang sarili ko?? *Aba'y malay.. Bakit nga ba?? Lagi mo akong inaabala..tsk tsk..* Ay whatever.. Ang pathetic..

Btw, last meeting namin kanina sa bc100.. [All together now: Aaaaaaawwwww]
Nagreport si Ma Sang Yong.. Yupyup.. He's Korean.. Ang cute niya..haha.. He couldn't pronounce some of the words na nasa report niya kaya maya't-maya eh natatawa na lang siya bigla.. Tsk tsk.. Kelan ko kaya uli makikita yun??*toink! Stalker??* haha..

In Love din ako sa Philo prof ko..wahaha.. *Ick! Dun sa mamantika na -e- ang pangalan tapos kamukha ni -i-?? Eeewww!!* haha.. Eh kasi naman eh.. ang kulit magturo.. parang laging constipated kasi galaw ng galaw tapos ang lakas mantrip.. Idol..hehe.. At tsaka halata namang mahal niya yung tinuturo niya..*pati tinuturuan??wahaha!* Tsk tsk.. *Wuuuuuuuuuuyyyyy!! Bagong lablayp!!!!* Ngyay.. Ang pathetic talaga.. Walang social life kaya pati prof pinagtritripan.. Sheesh..

Aaaaaaatt.. Ayon sa myheritage.com, [drumroll pls..] kahawig ko daw si Audrey Hepburn..haha.. Yepyep.. Kahit ako nga hindi ko maipaliwanag kung bakit eh.. Ang laki kaya ng mata nun..haha..*eh bakit, maliit ba mata mo??* Relatively..duh.. Compared naman sa mata nun oh.. Ay ewan.. bahala na..haha.. *blech! kahawig daw ni Audrey Hepburn.. Hah! In your dreams!*

*Ito ba ang kahawig ni Audrey Hepburn?? Asa ka iha.. Asa..*

Hmp.. Wacheber.. I wanna go home.. Like, now na.. Duh.. Up's driving me nuts.. Like, really.. My gulay.. I don't know if I can bear with this anymore.. Sheesh.. *Ay ang sarap batukan.. HIndi ka konyo iha.. Ang sagwa pakinggan..*

Ay nga pala.. May isang tao jan na masarap pabugahan ng holen kay Zuma.. Sheesh.. Naiirita talaga ako.. As in.. *Sino??* Wag na.. Wag nang pangalanan.. Basta.. Nakakabadtrip siya.. *Bakit?? Taga-Molave ba??* Aynko.. Eh kasi naman.. Tama bang ipagpalit ka sa..saan??*.. Wala.. Basta.. *Naman kasi eh..* Basta.. Ggrrr talaga.. As if naman kasi obliged siya 'no?? Duh.. Excuse me.. Hindi ako nagdedemand ha.. Never.. Asa ka naman.. masyado akong maganda para gawin yun.. Dursh!

Ay tama na.. Puro na negative energy.. Dapat happy.. Ismayl!!

finally

2006-09-06T23:37:00.000-07:00

9/24/06
wow..binyag..haha.. *first time mo??*
remember that coke commercial?? haha.. parang gnun..
wala lang.. i'm not making sense, am I??
whatever.. I hate explaining jokes..

anyway..
wala.. I'm here to rant..haha..

*deep breath*

ang dami-dami-dami ko pang gagawiiiiiiiiiiin!!!
waaaaah!..hehe..
ang galing ko kasi eh.. sheesh.

[To anyone out there who wants to take up The Art Of Procrastination 101, contact me anytime. You may send me an e-mail at reinne1604@yahoo.com o kaya leave a message on my tagboard. Or you can come to me personally tapos we can start right away..]

My gulay.. Ngayon ko lang nafi-feel yung pressure ng pagiging iskolar ng bayan.. As in yung tipong "Yeeeelp!! Nilalamon ako ng kolehiyo koooo!!!".. Ewan ko nga ba.. Ang lakas naman kasi ng loob ko at nag-UP pa ako eh.. Pero don't get me wrong.. I love UP.. I mean, how could you not love this??

Dba?? Dba??

pero kasi.. pero..ah..eh..hehe
Nakakabangag naman talaga ang college.. Lahat naman tayo may kanya-kanyang krus.. *Oo nga.. Alam mo naman pala un eh.. Eh why do you still act like you were the first to discover the pressure that na dala ng acads??* wala kang pakialam dun.. Blog ko 'to and I'll rant all I want kahit pa tungkol yan sa anak sa labas ng kapithbahay nila Bush.. Understand?? *sheesh.. Whatever*

Nahihilo na ako.. Open house namin kahapon at wala akong ibang napuntahang room sa boys' wing kundi ang room ni Jann at Johnson. Sa mga hindi nakakaalam, roommates sila.. So naiintindihan niyo na kung ano ang ibig kong sabihin?? Kung nalalabuan ka pa rin, stop reading at mag-Freecell ka na lang..Wala na akong balak mag-elaborate..

Ay basta.. Tapos, magvivideoke sana kami.. Actually, nakapagvideoke naman kami.. Pero two songs lang.. Nagdinner kasi kami agad eh.. Pagbalik naman namin, wala na.. KAya ayun, nakakalungkot..tsk tsk.. Handang-handa pa naman na sana si Dondon sa piece niya.. Sayang talaga..

At dahil hindi na kamo nakapag-videoke, tumunganga kami sa labas ng Molave.. Kasama ng mga lamok at mga langgam at mga asong gala. Habang naghihintay, we were counting persons who'd go through the door para malaman namin kung sinong soulmates namin..*korni*.. Wakkanga! So as I was saying, yun nga, the fifth girl to go through the door will be Jann's soulmate, the tenth Johnson's and the fifteenth, kay Pam.. Ang soulmate ni Jann si Cams,hehe, ung kay Johnson, si girl-with-glasses-in-yellow-everything, yung kay Pam, si what's-her-face, hehe, di ko maalala eh.. At yung umpthteenth girl who went through the door was supposed to be rinno's soulmate, and she turned out to be the daughter of Ate Vicky.. Ayos no?? btw, magkapatid ang soulmates namin..hehe.. pareho kaming pedophiles..sheesh..

I really should be doing my art stud paper right now, and oh, research for sts as well.. But what the heck..hehe..Tinatamad ako..*mabuting bata!*

Mahaba na masyado ang post na 'to so I'm cutting it til here na lng..Ciao!